A week ago on Saturday, I turned 25. That´s big one. I mean, no I still do not think about marriage, children or getting a mortgage. Like most of those, I know in my age. I think about, where my next travel adventure will be and how to tick another line in my bucket list.
And I also think about what I have learnt in 25 years of life.
Only love is sometimes just not enough. People need so much more. Trust, honesty and care. Ability to compromise and space to grow. Sometimes, no matter how much you love someone, it will never be enough. Don´t hurt yourself. Have your heart open, but choose wisely. And always love yourself!
People come and people go. And that´s okay! I used to be upset a lot about losing friends. It is so hard to make new friends once you are grown up. But I have learnt that there is no need to be upset about it. You move on with your life, your interests change, you choose different life paths and that´s okay. It doesn´t mean you do not care about each other anymore.
Trying to fit in or look the same like everyone else is a waste of time. Only go to a gym to be healthy and if you find it fun. Not because of all the butt pictures on Instagram. If you wanna cut your hair really short, just do it! Fancy a green lipstick? Wear it!
I have moved to England almost three years ago and I must say I do know it here better than I know my home place. But there is still so much to discover. I am a total junkie when it comes to something natural. A hundred years old tree, the very first blooming flowers in spring, the feel of sea waves on your feet or tiny bees collecting sweet nectar.
I do attach to places a lot. Usually because of the people. When I moved over here to the UK lots of little things in my live were these “first-time” pleasures. The first date, first time making a friend “from scratch”, first time moving to a share house… And every single place, bar, a town I have visited felt all new and ready to make memories.
Last Saturday I went to a cafe here in a tiny, tiny town I live, where I haven´t been over a year. It was called different, decoration was different, but the feeling remained.
Waiters are really sweet, food is nice and fresh, all home cooked… and all those cakes! If you are passing by, this place is worth giving up few minute in your busy lives.
A few weeks ago I made one of my dreams come true. The Bucket List just became a little shorter. I spent six days in beautiful Rome. On my own. And it was one of the best moments I have had in my life. Everything in Rome is huge. Breathtaking. And filled with stories to be told.
This is probably the most important point to have on your mind while living abroad alone. You need to realise how much have you achieved. Stepping out of your comfort zone and leaving all your securities, stable job, cosy home, friends, dog and family behind you to build something new elsewhere needs a courage. This on its own should flow some enthusiasm back to your veins.
Bring your talismans with you
Wearing your lucky shirt or those boots which were with you on every festival will keep you ready for new adventures. Have the same bracelet with your friend who lives hundreds of miles away. Necklace from your mum which you never take off no matter what. Printed photographs glued on your mirror. It might sound cheesy, but having something you can actually touch works much better than drowning yourself in thoughts on those you are missing. Just as a warm hug is better than “It´s gonna be okay, mate!” text.
Tastes like home
As a food lover, I like to try new dishes. But there is nothing just as satisfying as a chicken soup from my mum or goulash from grandad. Cooking or baking food I used to love as a little girl or a recipe for Christmas sweets from my mum fill my stomach just as well as my soul.
Keep yourself busy
When things are not working out don´t just sit around feeling sorry for yourself. Everyone is homesick from time to time and that is absolutely okay! But you need to know what your passion is to keep you going. Set yourself goals to motivate you. Improve in your hobbies. Start a painting or photography course. Do a yoga challenge. Travel to explore the new place you moved in. Enjoy “ME time”. You might as well meet new friends. And if you achieve your goals or improve your skills it will bring you to the point one. Comfort zone…being proud… Feeling good? Whoop whoop!
Connect with people
Find people with the same lifestyle as you have. Sharing your stories and feelings with someone who is experiencing the same happiness and troubles as you are is basically a free “homesick therapy”. Find groups on Facebook or go to couch-surfing meetings. It´s a good way to explore your new home. See where locals go and what they do. Less you feel like a tourist, more you feel like at home. At the point, you meet people from your home country and realise you communicate together not using your mother language is the moment you know “You´ll be fine.”
I remember how I fell in love with Benefit cosmetic. I was in Debenhams to buy a new foundation as my Dior Star was empty. And I was much happier with Dior Forever anyway so I went to a Dior to ask for a match as your skin is changing during the time, you go paler or tanned etc. and the lady who was there was so “friendly” I had to leave. I mean, if you go for a high-end makeup you kind of expect kind and professional service too. I am not rich enough to buy a 30£ foundation to find out later on the daylight it looks awful (we all know lightning inside of the shopping centers) or after two hours of wear it feels heavy or become oily on my skin.
So I walked around and a lady from Benefit started to talk to me, sat me down and showed me everything. I left with a full bag of things I didn´t exactly need. But to be fair we don´t really need makeup. We want makeup. Right?
Benefit the Porefessional PRO balm to minimize the appearance of pores
oil-free, lightweight, transparent, works immediately
I use it as a base under my foundation. But not all over my face. Only t-zone or small places which need softening.
Porefessional fills your pores immediately and makes your skin looking smooth and even for a flawless look.
Balm/creamy texture is slightly tinted but after applying becomes almost invisible.
Estée Lauder Double Wear Stay-in-Place Makeup in shade 2N1 Desert Beige. I used to wear Big and Easy by Benefit during the summer, but I like to change my foundations even when I am happy with them. When I use something on my skin or hair for too long it gets used to it and it does not work the same anymore.
Coverage is supposed to be medium, buildable. But for me, it feels more as a full coverage. I usually do not use any other correctors on top of this foundation as I prefer natural look most of the times and it would feel cakey. But you can definitely build it up if needed without looking orangy or plastic.
Stays on all day. Semi-matte finish.
On official Estée Lauder UK website, I found 44 different shades.
I am desperately missing a pump!
Hoola Benefit Swatch strong and light
Benefit Hoola soft matte bronzing powder
Probably the most favourite bronzing/contouring matte powder.
Packaging is cute and simple and also contains a brush.
You can buy it in two sizes 8g and 4g. I personally have the small one. Using it for months and have plenty.
As you can see on a swatch picture you can build it up as much as you need depending on your skin tone.
Colour suits everyone.
TIP: If need of super quick and natural makeup, use as an eyeshadow for a natural look.
Benefit Rockateur shimmer blush
This is my favourite blush of all times. I haven´t used blush before and ever since I have it I am so used to using it now, without a blush, I feel like plain paper. It really gives your cheeks beautiful natural colour which you can build up into much more drama sexy night out look.
The blush contains shimmer. But you are not going to look glittery, it just brights your smile up.
TIP: When I am super busy and don´t have time to play with makeup but still wants to look good this is my life saver. I use it on the apples of my cheeks, blend out to give nice define to my cheekbones instead of contouring and also give a quick colour to my eyelids instead of wasting time with eyeshadows. It gives your face even healthy look.And you are ready to go in no time! Woke up like this?
You can buy it in two shades Light to medium and Medium to dark.
Allows you to create natural looking brows or build up into the bold strong look.
TIP: I personally use only powder if I want a super natural look and only need to fill in. Or use the wax first to shape and than “stick” the powder into it if I like bold looking brows for the full makeup look.
Benefit Gimmer Brow in shade Medium/Deep
Volumizing fiber gel
Can be used on its own for natural looking brows. Or on top as a last but not least for volume and final fixing.
Water proof, long lasting
Fills, defines, fix
Benefit Goof Proof Brow Pencil in shade 6
Brow filling and shaping
I like the fact it´s not too soft so it doesn´t smudge and stay in place but can be blended easily.
No need of sharping.
Naked Illuminated brush
Naked Illuminated swatch
Urban Decay Naked Illuminated Shimmering Powder for Face and Body in shade Aura
Note one? I am in love with this!
Packaging contains 6g of beautiful product, brush and a small mirror which is something I love about UD product. Mirrors!
It is really hard to show in the picture but it is super pigmented. After blending into the skin the powder has a luminescent pink base with gold glitters on top.
You only need a little amount.
It is b.e.a.u.t.i.f.u.l.
If you go out in the summer for a festival or something like it I can imagine on tanned skin this will make your body glow like a pinky sun!
Benefit Watt´s up! Highliter
Benefit Watt´s up! Higliter brush/sponge
Benefit Watt´s up! Higliter swatch – left – raw, right – blended
Benefit Watt´s up! Highlighter
This was my first ever highliter which I absolutely love. Perfect for summer to give your face natural peachy gold glow.
The stick is super easy to use and for blending you can either use your fingers or sponge which is part of the cute packaging.
TIP: Only problem I have, it doesn´t work well with thicker foundation. Better apply on top of light foundation such as Big and Easy by Benefit which is more a BB cream with higher coverage, or to leave a little place on your skin where you want to apply this highlighter without the foundation. Otherwise, it goes smudgy, look uneven and instead of gold glow makes your skin look dirty.
Great for “strobing” makeup
Benefit Roller Lash Mascara
Urban Decay Perversion Mascara
Left – Roller Lash brush, Right – Perversion brush
Benefit Roller Lash Mascara
Absolutely love the brush.I haven´t seen any other like it. Looks different on each side of the brush. Thanks to the brush the mascara is super easy to apply on both lashes, top and bottom. I also use the brush for brushing lashes if I use different mascara as it separates them and gives them a volume.
Dries quickly once applied it is hard to add another coat as lashes feel kind of hard. But it is not a problem for me. It stays on a place and doesn´t need another coat. If needed you can use They’re Real! Tinted Primer.
After a whole day wear, it doesn´t leave any marks under my eyes. I felt asleep in it, I was partying for almost 12 hours in summer weather and it didn´t make me look like a panda. Hooray!
Urban Decay Perversion Mascara
I bought this mascara in a deal packaging Total Perversion together with an eyeliner.
Gives volume, lenght and curls. Also is super pigmented. Black is black!
Love to use two coates for more drama look.
I would probably said the same things about Perversion as about Roller lash. Only difference for me is Perversion gives you more drama. But I love them the same.
Loréal Paris Sexy Balm in shade Sheer as If
Tinted balm to gives you moisture on the go while still looking chick and juicy.
You have a choice of sheer or bold.
Not an very longlasting (sheer! I also have a bold colour one and it is super pigmented and hardly goes of your lips) but easy to apply on the way without a need of a mirror.
Urban Decay Revolution Lipstick in a shade Rush
One of the first lipsticks I bough from UD and also one of my absolute favourite.
Creamy texture, beautiful day wear nude-pink colour, moisturising.
TIP: If I need a long wear effect I combine it with Essence Lip Liner in shade Satin Mauve.